danbroussard

I'm jealous of you for the confidence He gave you. Where is my Passion? Where is His will in my Heart? It is everywhere at once yet it immaterializes continously. Not very much at all like the probable state of an electron. Things are and yet are not in this world, Dan. There is opacity to the Real in my world, but I know I am the Real. I KNOW I am the Real. But for me being is an openness, and though I have felt the pull to action, the acceleration to immediacy, I feel it in the distance, whereas you feel it now. Part of me fears it is a deceptive hope, in my case. Another part of me knows it will come and swirl around me like a hurricane; still another part knows it will never come and death will take me and I will have lived well and will be satisfied with my every moment and decision because I will cease knowing everything and Die. I am ready to be pointed. My angle is everyday more and more acute, slicing the thickness of society's fatty layers...ready to be a soldier.